Friday, February 06, 2004
Right now I'm just standing around thought I could update alittle. Might be online this weekend. *cough hopenoonecatchesmeusingblogatschool cough* and anyway. Yeah bible saturday. Tonight Emily is coming over. We had a two hour delay. Um not much has gone on lately. Just been getting good grades and sleeping when I can. I am playing Final Fanatasy Tactics at the time...so life is good, other than the verbal fight I had last night with mom about the fairness of how mom treats me and my sister (sister doesnt get in trouble much)
Dustin
Posted at 12:51 pm by Kanaye
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
dont kill me for not posting forever but...
Hello to all my readers and people reading this. Yeah sorry about this but my PC is broken at the time. I'm not avoiding anyone...on purpose. Yeah so many things have happened these past few days. I have a new g/f. It was the person I was dating eariler. I've been doing great at school. And I have only written one poem, so not in the best artistic mood. Although I was recording some songs over here at Jamie T's! Yeah man it was about 12-1am hehehe but we still got some stuff in. I went to a party (Justin B's B-day party) I did some metal screaming over there. WOO! Sorry that was random. But I have a magic toe nail. OK random again. But the last poem I did I wrote it in my sleep. My dreams have been getting odder and odder, but thats okay, most of them tell me whats going to happen when I wake during the day. But I havent been in school since Friday. This blasted snow is getting on my nerves. But anyone, dont think I'll be on AIM again. Cause um my PC is broken. But hey deal with it. *sighs (just lost alot of readers)*. But I shall be back as soon as I get my step dad to fix my crappy thing people like to call el computer-o. Okay they might not call it that. But I shall see you then!
Dustin
Posted at 09:42 am by Kanaye
Thursday, January 15, 2004
Well its thursday, I'm still trying to figure out what I am doing frinight, saturday, and sunday. Monday night is a date. Its gonna be kewl. Let you know about it later. I am still up for Lord of the Rings RPG. Yeah so now I've got Phil, Jonathon, and Brian. And me of course. Um, everything else, lets see, Emily Hall wont be at school tommarow. Its Senor day at North. So I get to hang with the friends more, not that I mind if I spend just a bit more time with her than my friends. I dont know... I always seem to have g/fs (or in this case maybe future g/f) alittle more important than friends, not by much but...yeah.
Dustin
Posted at 06:00 pm by Kanaye
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
I really dont have much to say today. School was boring, Church was cool. Nothing new...nothing has changed...
I'm in my own little world, and I am running out of oxygen
..hehehe.
I read your email.
I see fragged people
Roll the dice to see if I am getting drunk! (dungeons and dragons joke).
Dont annoy the CRAZY person!
inu o tabetekudasai! (Please, eat the dog (Japanese))
Ah so I am reading the RPG for LotR, its gonna be hard for me cause its my first RPG that I have hosted, even if I dont host, I've never played a dice rpg...so all those that come, be paitent....
As of the next date, I plan to go to the mall...but what day, my weekend is shrouded in mystery...
so how is everyone, good I hope? I've kind have been out of it for the past 2 days...my ESP grows...but my attention span is going bye bye...maybe I need sleep....lots of sleep...yessss.
Dustin
Posted at 09:00 pm by Kanaye
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
its just another tuesday, wish it was saturday already
It's been since Middle School that I had a really big stalker, yeah... kinda bugs me. But I am not all here right now, cant think, I need some food. Hmmm I am getting really obbessesed with Lord of the Rings...yeah good stuff. I have a balrog background up hehehe. Arent I the coolest? *coughs*
I'm getting tired from school. So I am gonna need some rest...sorry if I get off early, that is if I do. I dont know when I want to do another date with Emily Hall... although everytime my ex, Emily Malard, asks me about the Emily I am taking on dates I just feel odd. So Emily Malard....I just dont know how to think of you right now...um I would like to keep things at a normal chit chat.
Lets see...I'm planning a Lord of the Rings day for roleplaying. I am inviting Brian Goad and Jonathon Loftlin. Any other big LotR fans out there that I know of, let me know, I'll think about letting you in on it. I'm going to have to read more about how to play. I'm feeling lightheaded right now sooo...hmm reading would not be a good thing.
Dustin
Posted at 06:19 pm by Kanaye
Monday, January 12, 2004
the following days you missed
Hey everyone, its your favorite Vampire slayer here (*giggles*).
Feeling bad about not letting in on my life lately so....here is the so far tales
Friday- Snow day, no school, Watched LotR Fellowship of the Ring, planned for Saturday (fridays rating: okay...could be better)
Saturday- Watched Two Towers extended version, "Dont be hasty!" Went on a date with Emily Hall (not same Emily as before) saw Return of the King with her (ahhh 3 hours 10 minutes...)
Sunday- went to church Church, stayed home! woo
monday was okay...yeah not much...so so...mondays are meant for that, but LotR ish the awesome! Anyway I have to go to bed...
Love ya people, (good mood)
Dustin
Posted at 10:16 pm by Kanaye
Friday, January 09, 2004
Lets see here shouts out today are:
Jamie S.- for reading my blog and saying I was the sexier stalker! WOO!
Kirk- Poor guy...I wish I could find a girl for him to date!
J.R.R. Tolkien- Mahn! Lord of the Rings is the stuff! One of my new favorite things
Barnes and Noble- Give me free coffee so I can read all of your books with out paying, same goes for you Borders...but Borders, you need more anime
Today's quote: "Not all who wonder are lost" - Gandalf the Gray
um still dont know about my plans. So give me another hour, I'll add it here or something...
Posted at 02:01 pm by Kanaye
bravery and trust at its best
Ah well I finally got over stupidity and childishness, I'm friends with Emily once more. I am not good at ignoring people, or hurting them either. Which I feel is a good thing, right? Might go to concert tonite, might go on a date sunday, still not sure. *sighs* I thought I had everything in order. Then its all confusing again. What do I want to do? Not what people want me to do. Relient K is awesome. But I have their CDs I could listen to them anytime. Sure its a live concert. But I am not much for sitting still in a concert, I gotta mosh, and I am sure it wont be alowed. Me out of all people getting in trouble for moshing...LoL! Er so right now I am chatting with some friends. I was gonna have pics but not yet I guess, I'll have to work on that or whatever. Anyway, see ya later people!
Dustin
Posted at 01:03 pm by Kanaye
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
when you feel like your down...at least you feel
Well, you know, atleast I have regained my feelings, but I have lost my thoughts. I have closed them to only think of what is not real. I'm getting lost in my fantasy world, and I dont feel bad about it. Yeah I have been really good with school. This is actally a time where I sat down and thought about what I did before I do it. Which is something new, I hope it stays. I think about priorites and what comes first. Thats probably the only reality thing I want right now. I love getting lost in the Lord of the Rings. I never thought these books could help me in a craving for adventure. I dont have to be there, because it feels like your there. But I am back to getting hurt easily. Right now I dont feel like even play fighting (with words and insults that arent anything) So if your reading this, I ask a favor, please be nice right now. I'm kinda psycho, been crying about alot of dumb things. But anyway today is wensday, I'm reading two towers (or trying to make time) I still have a few days before I have to decide what to do with the money I have for the weekend, a concert, or not spending much with a date...hmmm the possibilities. I havent really looked for a relationship right now, just a good time of getting to know other people. I want to wait untill my heart is whole again. Where I can just say Hi to Emily and just tell her I'm okay, lets be friends, but dont push me to it. It would not be my true feelings...anyway, no more for today about me...I have 15 minutes left.
Dustin
Posted at 09:32 pm by Kanaye
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
Jamie thanks for helping me...I know I have a long way to go...again...but your help is really making me improve already...I was already starting to feel worthless...but Jamie you reached your hand to save me from drownding, I knew you were where I stand now...I confess you made me smile...and a smile shall last me a mile, for frienship doesnt seem like a bad thing, but oddly I just need to work on trusting everyone, when only one person seemed to hurt me, when it all comes down to it, when she ripped my heart I felt the pain of what I kept inside, from other people hurting me, of all the pain I have had...I really cant keep that feeling in anymore, I just want you to leave me alone Emily, I am tired of giving you chances, I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid of me around you. This it Emily, that is if you reading this. I want to be a stranger, to keep us out of danger, to let me live again, to let me breathe again.
Dustin
Posted at 10:25 pm by Kanaye
